There are a lot of things I wish I could say to you but I won’t. I won’t say them because I’d be going against my pride and the expectation of strength I had set for myself to meet. I won’t admit how I feel because you wouldn’t understand. You wouldn’t understand why I feel this way and I’ve never told you or why I’ve told you lies to cover up my emotion. I miss you, not us, but you. But I’d never tell you, because if I did, I’d lose and nobody likes to lose.
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn't try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
“The thing that hurts the most is the fact that I lied to myself. I wanted things to be good so badly that I made up things to gloss over the bad parts. I know that sounds stupid, but that’s exactly what I did. I actually believed it too. To want is a bad thing sometimes. It gets people hurt. It got me hurt. The world is a lonely place and people will go to great lengths to find someone whom they can be with.”—Henry Rollins
I respect a niggas hustle. If you gotta be away from me for a couple days-week, then that’s fine w/ me, I understand the things you got to do to earn your money. But I just hope that while you out there doing business, you won’t be pulling no shady shit. I should be the one and ONLY female that stays on your mind as you steadily handling.
“No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice.”—Chuck Palahniuk (via 2lions)
“I wanted to cry, but I made it look easy. It ain’t easy to hold it in and save face. And it was harder to stay, so I made it look easy. It ain’t easy to just get up and walk away. Now I’m alone and the tears do fall. Open my mouth and the words do fall. Now I’m standing here after all, with this broken heart.”—Frank Ocean (via vxxvivo-xo)
If you know you gotta good female on her toes for you, quit tryna spit game at other girls. You know how you’re supposed act when you’re in a relationship & your responsibilities are simple: Don’t lie & Don’t cheat. If you’re still gonna act single when you’re taken, don’t be in a relationship. Simple as that. Be grown.